Another thing is I feel really bad about what I did to her the other night. I guess I physically hurt her by getting a little carried away in raw desire. She did the same to me the weekend before, I just didn't tell her. She gave me a little rug burn you know where, and I guess I did something simmular to her, but in a more female way I suppose. It is actaully kinda strange to talk about it.....I don't really know why. And i am kinda sorry, and feel bad in a way. Go figure it is all messed up.
I find myself still searching for Tara's sn on my BL and going on my other sn's to see if she is on. I read her Journal all the time too. How stupid i am.....it is pathetic, i know. But......what can I do, it is Tara.......Uggggggg
Myranda melted when I gave her the mix I made her. I chicked out on giving her the thing I wrote with it, but I sent the same words in an Email later that night. This is officially the longest relationship I have been in.....How much longer, eh? Can manic depressive emotions maintian love?